Mom, You Are Driving Me Crazy…Literally

“I hate you!” “I wish you weren’t my mother!” “I hate this house!”  Have you said any or all of these things? Have you pronounce worse words to the one human being that gave birth to you? I have and I can say that most of us have spoken words we wish we could swallow back and never say again. Unfortunately, some of us have to live with a mother, grandmother, and any guardian and/or loved one that has no control over their actions or words and therefore causes us to consistently lose control of our well taught manners.

I’m referring to something that is genetic, incurable and extremely hard to cope and live with. It is a dark cloud, that if allowed can become violent and emotionally bearing on someone. Strong winds and rains that are hard to keep under control and therefore causes turmoil and stress with the individual afflicted and those around them.

“Mom, you are driving me crazy...literally” I have had consistent thoughts telling me that I can become just like her. That with my actions, words, and the stress endured throughout the years I will become self-indulged, hypocritical, inconsiderate and a liar. The genetics of the illness makes me think that I will suffer her same fate.  At those moments, when these dark clouds start to form and invade my thoughts I always try to focus that eventually a stream of sun light will appear and allow me to consider that I am nothing like her and therefore cannot completely change overnight.

We have the power to bring sunshine to our lives and to hold back those nasty words. We have to stop and consider the illness overpowering that individual and rethink what will be said. Some of you may be rolling your eyes, but trust me I know. Yes, I know how hard this is. I live with this every day, I try very hard to hold back and it is not easy. I, honestly don’t think that it will ever be easy but we do have the power to control ourselves and to cope with the pain of living a life full of stress endured by the one person we love the most.

This is the power of faith and positive thinking. They will literally…not drive us crazy. Make that your main thought. I have definitely been trying that myself.